Jean-Dominique Bauby:
I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren’t paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.
Jean-Dominique Bauby:
We’re all children, we all need approval.
Jean-Dominique Bauby:
A poet once said, "Only a fool laughs when nothing’s funny"
Dr. Lepage:
We want you to take it easy for a few days.
Jean-Dominique Bauby:
What do you think I’m doing now?
by Rachel Yamagata
Baby says I can’t come with him
And I had read all of this in his eyes
Long before he even said so
Why go, I asked
You know and I know why
And it’ll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don’t expect anything
I don’t expect anything
Take care
I’ve been hurt before
Too much time spend on closing doors
You may hate me, but I’ll remember to love you
Goodbye
Don’t cry
You know why
And it’ll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don’t expect anything
I don’t expect anything
All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again
Never to see your face again
And it’ll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
It’ll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don’t expect anything
I don’t expect anything
I don’t expect anything
I don’t expect anything
I don’t expect anything
I don’t expect anything to change when I leave
Part of me has died
And won’t return
And part of me wants to hide
The part that’s burned
Once
Once
I knew how to talk to you
Once
Once
But not anymore
Hear the sirens
Call me home, call me home
Call me home, call me home
Part of me has vowed
To watch it burn
And the heart of me has tried
But look what it’s become
Once
Once
I knew where to look for you
Once
Once
But that was before
Once
Once
I would have laid down and died for you
Once
Once
But not anymore
Hear the sirens
Call me home, call me home
Call me home, call me home
Call me home
so
if you ever want something
and your call comes
then I’ll come running
to fight
and I’ll be at your door
when there’s nothing
worth running for
when your mind’s made up
when your mind’s made up
there’s no point trying to change it
when your mind’s made up
when your mind’s made up
there’s no point trying to stop it
you see
you’re just like everyone
when the shit falls
all you want to do is run
away
and hide all by yourself
when it’s far from
there’s nothing else
when your mind’s made up
when your mind’s made up
there’s no point trying to change it
when your mind’s made up
when your mind’s made up
there’s no point even talking
when your mind’s made up
when your mind’s made up
there’s no point trying to fight it
when your mind’s
your mind’s
there’s no point trying to change it
so
if you ever want something
when your call comes
then I’ll come running
We had planned the whole San Remjio trip way before we
even thought it was a reality. It was somehow a wish we had long before
that only presented in our dreams. We didn’t even imagine ourselves
riding a boat to some desserted island thinking chi knew where it was.
But after all the palpak habalhabal rides and traveling at night with
the rain pouring out trying to say that this trip was not ment the
trouble, we arrived in San Remjio baybay at eleven in the evening and
went home the next day with crispy faces and bodies. But the sun burn
was worth it.
After almos12 hours soaking in the water,it was
probably impossible to get away from sun burn. We were too amazed by
the beach’s magnificent views and of course the feel of summer in our
cracks that we forgot to put on some sunscreens. Palpakins jud! We
wereso amzed by the blue sea that we forgot the sun..well, we didn;t
exactly forgot, we just thought that we might not have the same
experience in the future, we might as well todo todo it na!!
weew! but almost 12 hours of fun ended in a whole week
of sacrifice, We had total skin damage in our faces a!nd not to mention
the ENLARGEMENT OF MY NOSE BRIDGE !
yah,my friend don’t know this yet but I llok like like
a monster this days.. my nose grew so huge it made me look like a
merman..take not, not a mermaid because mermaids are suppose to be
kicking ass beautiful!! (I did not take picture of eat!!wahah)
But to hell the monstrous huge nose karma! I was freakin having fun
with friends chi, andi, hazel, erick and my boyfriend alvin and my twin
and I we’re blowin the waves away with our awesome narcissus poses.
I guess, the sun burn was worth it because the
experience was alot of fun and I had really cooldudeswith me who we’re
really awesome..this was my best summer experience this season ever!
If only words could sketched the home
I left when I went away that summer evening
I would dearly collect those words
and put it in my pallete
and gently brush them into my pad
like watercolors
But that home has hundred words in it
and hundred broken sentences and phrases
that might make this sketched
a useless unsolved puzzle
I kinda like the color of my skin now that I have these tanned marks just because it means that I am already in the mood for the summer get away…yup,I wanna go to the beach and have fun until the sun goes down..
There are things that should be left unsaid because we might regret saying it after the point of saying it. these things should be kept inside because they are meant not to be said because there is no point of saying it..and we have to calculate truly if we should say things before making the move because we might end up wishing that an eraser could erase one gesture of a minute in a day that could ruin all the plans made for forever…
sigh
I am counting the days being with a soul mate..because these might be the last months of having him..I know, he will be boarding a ship and staying in a trap ground with only an hour of shared feelings with me..and it kills me just thinking of these..cause I know it might happen..it will happen..and I would be left here alone like before with out daily assurance…and I might stumble and I might falter and I might be uncontented as opposite as my contentment today..
but it is inevitable..so I am counting these days..just for redemption that my tears are worth emptying when he will be out of my sight..
I don’t know what to do, honestly……..my soul mate is about to be trapped in a glass box and I have to wait for five long years for him to be free from the box..
