everything is coming back to my head like morse codes
i don’t like to stop working. i just like to make myself busy with everything; speed up my momentum with school work. i don’t like to stop the energy and be a lazy bug again partly because if i stare for i while and just space out, everything that i regretted keeps on coming back to my head like morse code. i can even clearly remember a scence which happened to me a long time ago with micheal vialoces. that scence was when i looked at him in the face and told him the we should break up. and he said okay and at that instant, i was not emotional. but i guess time has something to do with emotions. it either lessens it or it sharpens its edge. so by the time i was able to come back to the batinguel house before dinner; i had already regretted letting him go.
another memory i remember was the time i went to dexter’s hous eand saw his cute nephews. it made me realize that i was really bad to him. i did not treat him nice but then these cute 3year old babies just hugged my leg out of nowhere as if i was part of there family. and it was a sad thought because that night and that instant was my last chance to visit his family because it was the time we let go of each other.
i remeber every instance when i let go of somebody. and those instance where never easy. and i guess liza loab was right when she wrote her lyrics saying "the time between meaning and finally leaving is sometimes called falling in love" because these moments doesn’t smudge out, it always gets sharpen by time no matter how hard one tries to soften it.
